Faceless LED Watch by Hironao Tsuboi http://ping.fm/cXolC
piątek, 29 października 2010
@IRiDEscent_ERiS: "@JadedKittyKimiko: ""Your mouth blooms like a cut, sweet and full of sin"" @agquarx" ♫ http://blip.fm/~xzlhi
środa, 27 października 2010
@ReflectionSymmetry I feel wee need / I construct sentry / Don't come to me / Weight random entry / Event of hid... ♫ http://blip.fm/~xx2dk
niedziela, 24 października 2010
środa, 13 października 2010
@IRiDEscent_ERiS I listen to it whenver I feel like there is no reason to continue and I stop, just like that. I... ♫ http://blip.fm/~xcql7
@IRiDEscent_ERiS: "☼ I'm dating ancient ghosts, the ones I made friends with.. @agquarx ▲ The Cardigans - 03:45 ... ♫ http://blip.fm/~xcqfd
@IRiDEscent_ERiS: "☼ I'm still following the pain.. You hold the key of what I need, unlock the door that will @... ♫ http://blip.fm/~xcqer
@DescendingDown Cold is the air in this darkness / Black are my army laced boots / Today I didn't sleep nor rest... ♫ http://blip.fm/~xcjdi
@DescendingDown I make up for absence of your hips / I touch myself like you would like to / I think about your ... ♫ http://blip.fm/~xc3mn
wtorek, 12 października 2010
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Ask me anything you want. Anything goes. I will respond within 48 hour or faster. http://formspring.me/agquarx
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Ask me anything you want. Anything goes. I will respond within 48 hour or faster. http://formspring.me/agquarx
How long was the longest period of time ever that you have been awake? And how long was the longest you ever slept for?
It is hard sometimes to tell if you are not having micro sleep episodes, when you try to stay awake using stimulant drugs for extended periods of time. Reality becomes suddenly not so much different from the dream space, for some reason you'd rather not know about. Anxiety generated by worries about madness is common. Sometimes you are just not sure, especially after first three to four days without sleep. You test the reality however you can. If you still feel like you care, that is. The longest period without sleep for me is two weeks. I never slept longer than a day.
@IRiDEscent_ERiS: "☼ Suzanne Vega – Stay Awake @agquarx You're going to hit a new personal record..." ♫ http://blip.fm/~xbgsy
What is the difference between bipolar disorder, schizophrenic disorder and multi personality? The strength of personages or more?
Please read carefully and compare them for yourself: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Multiple_personality_disorder, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizophrenia
Can you describe from an insider's experience what it is like to go through a psychosis? Is it like a bad drug trip?
It is not always an experience alike hell. Sometimes it is more like heaven. But always when it ends, you feel cheated of your life by evil disease that lied to you so you believe truly and with all your soul in good and evil spirits and higher truths and then told you she is really lying and nothing of what you've known and loved for all this time with all your being is true at all and it's all just crap and void and emptiness of despair.
How do I make a strong password?
Make sure you are not using any word that can be found in a dictionary, nor it's reverse. Never use anything that can be deduced from your profile or easily guessed. 12-15 characters should be OK for most cases. Choose them randomly (use a tool maybe or dice) from an unordered set of lower case, upper case letters and symbols and punctuation. If you follow this recipe, you will make a very strong password. Remember to change your password periodically, for example every three months if your server might be regularly attacked. Make sure that at least last five passwords are not repeated, preferably by setting the operating system to remember it for you, so you don't have to. And don't forget your password! Use some kind of password manager or something :-). LastPass is good and free.
When going through a bad period in your disorder, how do you manage to stay focussed on the knowledge that it will pass and get better again?
My imaginary friends helped me a lot. Even if I don't really believe in their existance. Friends like LUCYFAIR, Astarte, others.
Someone I know has schizophrenic disorder and is always very low in energy. He has to really calculate when and where to use his energy. Small physical duties are very tiring to him. Do you (have to) plan your energy use?
Yes. I try to avoid any needless or excess energy expenditure.
Correct me if I'm wrong; with your disorder I imagine your emotions must be like a roller coaster ride; how do you manage to stay consistent to the outside world?
I just trust my body. It is a very good anchor.
How do medical drugs help you to function better? Can you give an example of how you would function w/ or w/o meds? In a certain situation?
I'm not really sure. I don't remember how I feel without drugs, because I was taking drugs all the time for the last 10 years.
Is medication in schizophrenic disorder primarily aimed at preventing psychosis?
Yes, it is also meant to help alleviate the so called negative symptoms of schizophrenia.
poniedziałek, 11 października 2010
How does a person with bipolar or schizophrenia keep their different personalities in check?
It comes with practice. First, there are drugs, they help. Then, there should be talk therapy, but I don't believe in it, so I don't use it. I try to stay in touch with reality realized by staying in touch with my body. I think about myself as "we", not "I". I accept my multiplicity. This way I am not afraid of it. So I can control it, with it's agreement.
(what) do you like (about) Christmas?
Nothing. When I was younger, I liked the presents. Now? Nothing
niedziela, 10 października 2010
wtorek, 5 października 2010
Do you belive that we can make our dream real?
Yes, if we plan accordingly and things happen to our benefit. Things just happen, you know
What kind of cat is Jarema? Fur colour, character, etc.
He is large (9KG), silver with red accents, looks a lot like tiger :-). He is rather shy, but loves me very much and follows me when I move to other part of apartment, so he can beg for some massage ;-). He has the cutest buzz you have ever encountered, low and masculine :-).
@IRiDEscent_ERiS: "☼Electrical current hallowed be thy name, lift my emotions and banish all my shame...... ♫ http://blip.fm/~x1b64
What does being a wytch add to your worldview or sense of spirituality that is unique and “not accessible” thru major world religions?
As a wytch I have special powers, of course. My intuition is so heightened that I can use it instead of pure reason. Magickal beings talk to me freely. I cast love spells hither and dither...As to worldview - I became a wytch after a revelation of Last Child of Gaia in a dream I was telling you about I think. I am in love with Mother Earth. I can't stand people who tell me that this life is meaningless comparing with life after death. Wytches know there is none. I have never seen a spirit from the dead and I'm not expecting to. Whole afterlife is a bunch of bullshit that only makes people care less about each other and our planet. I hate organized religions for creating this harmful illusion. People that mourn their dead know that there is nothing on the other side, I think, deep in their hearts, even if they say otherwise. Or they wouldn't mourn.
Do individual humans go thru their life experiences mainly to learn lessons for themselves, or for the whole of mankind to evolve as a species, by sharing their experiences?
You surely fancy dualism ;-) Didn't I tell you every dualism is false? ;-) Individual humans learn for themselves, but they are not alone - they talk to others about those experiences in many ways, like books or fireside stories, thus enabling the resonance of dissonance of the symbol clouds emerging in their minds as a result of those experiences. We are symbol processing entities, we cannot help but to process symbols. To quote Pink Floyd: "Keep talking" :-)
Do you believe mankind will evolve to a higher state of consciousness, so we will finally lose the drive to manipulate and kill for control of resources? Will love conquer?
No, I don't think so. We will control ourselves, sure, but as material beings we simply HAVE to use material resources. That's how life is - it decreases it's own entropy at the cost of increasing the entropy of the world around it...
What’s more important in your life: being a priestess of Astarte or being a wytch, or do those two blend into one?
Being a priestess of Astarte is more important to me.
Are we all seperate individual beings or One Being expressed through myriads of individuals?
Neither. We are separate individuals (that is what an individual **is**, "a separate entity"), but we are connected by relations in-between that modify by emergency existence of properties of each of us, so it comes out LIKE we were a bigger thing in some sense, which we are, kind-of, because we are IN the big and pretty and young Universe who has no OUT-side, by definition of Universe. She cannot have the out-side or we are not connected by relations in-between and we are connected or cause and effect don't exist (some disagree with their existence and I sometimes agree with them ;-)) AND our properties (the way we compare things so we can see they are LIKE other things) would be absolute not emergent and they are not absolute, which can be observed by looking at the Universe. This only talks about our properties, not essence, if any. I don't believe in essence, personally. It remains to be discussed. This is not based only in pure logic, but also multiple systematical empirical observations, not just by me of course, I can read, thank you ;-). She is definitely NOT human, but she is alive and in this sense LIKE us. LIKENESS IS NOT EQUIVALENCE. Map is not the territory. Every dualism is false. We are alive, therefore she must be alive or we are not really alive. Ignore popular "old school" definition of "alive" because it is widely disputed. So, neither answer :-). Very Discordian, you must agree, but unintentionally so :-). HAIL ERIS! ALL HAIL DISCORDIA!
poniedziałek, 4 października 2010
Czy przyjaźń i miłość, mogą iść ze sobą w parze? Czy wzajemnie się wykluczają?
Absolutnie się nie wykluczają. Miłość bez przyjaźni to piekło zazdrości. Przyjaźń bez miłości jest możliwa chyba tylko między komputerami.
how you doooooin ;)
I'm so emo today. I need to write a huge entry in my bloguś. Maybe someone will comment and I won't need to cut myself again...
sobota, 2 października 2010
piątek, 1 października 2010
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